You Hinder Me

You hinder me.

Thoughts of you make it so that I can not sleep.

I battle me,

for you.

Open the door for love?

I want to.

But with you?

That seems like a foolish thing to do.

I am not sure.

Your behavior makes me question you.

I never know what to do;

to try harder?

Or to walk out of the door next to you.

I believe I held onto you longer than I should have.

Life haunts me in ways you are incapable of seeing.

It is almost like you have provided comfort for me.

Except the reality is ,

you do not comfort me.

You're emotionally unavailable.

You torment me.

I express my needs and yet you

use your precious time to ignore me.

And still, I have stayed.

I continued to play your games.

I like to think that you suffer from small man syndrome;

which would mean that somehow I suffer from shrunken woman syndrome.

What a disastrous love story this has turned out to be.

Forever bearing inconsistencies,

this story ends with the message of;

You Hinder Me.