Development, Advancement, Adjustment, Diversity, Shift, Transition, Modification, Evolution.
How do you respond to change? What does a Shift in the norm do to you?
I like to think I'm like a chameleon. I like to believe I adapt to change well, but in reality I am a creature of habit and change can be debilitating for me. Stepping out of your comfort zone is one of the hardest things to do. It makes us anxious and irritable. I can admit I have fallen victim to change and its uncertainty's.
I have let the fear of the unknown hold me back in ways that were never noticeable in the moment but I can always point those moments out when I take the time to reflect, I guess that's why they say self reflection is so important. There is an unknown realm out there which should truly be considered magical but Instead some of us run, avoid, and ignore when we are introduced to the unfamiliar. I used to avoid change myself but now, I am intrigued.
I crave the unknown.
Everything that once seemed so scary all seems so fresh now, so new and so exciting. I am learning that holding onto what once was means being frozen in time. Stuck. Trapped. Living life on a never ending loop, I am exhausted. It's almost like watching the same movie over and over again.. yes, I love it but I already know how it ends. Every day feels like a continuation when you don't create the change you'd like to see yourself. If you're anything like me, you probably dream it and I don't know like just forget to actually do it or whatever? (self sabotage at its finest) enough is enough though, ya know.
I am missing the element of surprise, the good kind.
I have been waiting for all the things I desire to be handed to me on a silver platter.(unrealistic right?) I don't know about you though but I am D O N E waiting.
I want adventure and a change of scenery. I want to shop in a grocery store where I don't know how to find every item with my eyes closed. I want to drive down the street without a GPS and no clue where I'm going. I want to get lost, only long enough to find myself. I want growth. I want happiness. I want change. I still feel anxious at the thought, but this mindset of mine has changed and I welcome all change with open arms and an open mind.
xoxo Cait
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