Big Comfy Couch

I didn't get off of the couch today

and yet I suppose that is not too much different from any other day.

I rot; a lot.

A thirty one year old

who has been living in a tough spot.

I have almost forgot

what it feels like to just live a normal life,

no chronic illness in sight.

No medically induced menopause causing me to have sleepless nights.

I didn't get off of the couch today,

even though I wanted too,

even though I tried.

I did not get off of the couch today

and that made me cry.

Tears of frustration create beautiful streams that run down onto my cheeks.

I get flustered and upset,

knowing that I gave it my best.

I have not gotten off of the couch today

because I have been having an extremely difficult time

adapting to my life's new reality.