It is time I stop normalizing my reality.
my reality is abnormal at best and it hardly seems real
I live a life most could never comprehend
This morning I had my finger stabbed repeatedly with many needles
she continued to squeeze the same finger to squirt all of the blood out of it
It hurt.
the feeling was unappealing
then I went to a room where I sat and signed a waiver over my life.
"this medicine could help you yet it could harm you just the same.."
Is this a risk you are really willing to take?
I wonder when it all starts being crazy,
the continued trying
what am I chasing?
I will never be the same. My life f o r e v e r changed
Cancer the thief has ransacked my home
I signed three more papers
my brain says
"are we really doing this?!"
I guess so, I reply
not knowing what else to do
I am emotionally exhausted
physically I am drained
I am fighting a monster all by myself
I question every decision I make.
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