Chaos with Cait

My grief rose one night and slipped from my chest like a small, trembling moon. I thought it would break me but instead it learned how to glow, orbiting closer with every breath I survived. Now, I see it for what it is: a fallen star that I picked up with bare hands, one still burning with the memory of everything I’ve lost. Grief doesn’t vanish, it constellates: it sketches new patterns across the dark and teaches me that even sorrow can learn the language of light. So, when

I set boundaries not to push love away, but to honor and protect the love that I give. Knowing my limits is genuinely a new thing for me.

You are not worthless, and you are not small. The world just gets louder when it fears how powerful you truly are.

I did not grow tall, I grew true. I was bent by wild wind, there were times when I wanted to give in. But, my roots stayed strong. And so, I may be weathered and a little torn, but I have been reaching towards the sun anyways.

Forever isn’t long enough, if you ask me. Matter of fact, I don’t even know if “forever” is a real thing. What I do know is that in this life there are moments where I wish I could make the clock freeze. I want to bottle these moments of laughter, and joy. I want to keep them forever. Forever seems like a long time in theory. But have we ever even seen anyone make it there? I’m not sure I have. So, I have been choosing to live life a little more present. I have been slowing t

My heart is kind even after everything, that is where my magic rests. That is where I store all of the love, gratitude and tiny miracles inside of my chest

I sip the thought of you like a heated tea on a cold almost spring morning burning, but necessary. The thoughts consumed me, and suddenly I could no longer put my tea down. I found myself in a spiral of all the could haves, the should haves, or perhaps even the would haves. I started questioning things again, asking what could all this life stuff actually be about? I bet you think that I never think of you, but the truth is, that I do. And in the moments that I think of you