Chaos with Cait

I sip the thought of you like a heated tea on a cold almost spring morning burning, but necessary. The thoughts consumed me, and suddenly I could no longer put my tea down. I found myself in a spiral of all the could haves, the should haves, or perhaps even the would haves. I started questioning things again, asking what could all this life stuff actually be about? I bet you think that I never think of you, but the truth is, that I do. And in the moments that I think of you

Hold on, love Take a moment, breathe. Because yes, the light is slower than the darkness. But still it never forgets its way back to you. Be steady, my darling Every shadow you have survived is proof that you were glowing even when you couldn’t see it. Your sunrise is coming, you have been devoted to your self growth and you have been patient. You have believed in your light and have chosen to always maintain it. Keep breathing. Keep hoping. Because the light is already on i

I kiss the air and imagine that the wind carries it to someone, somewhere who is aching too.

I stopped asking what would happen next and the air suddenly felt lighter. I started believing in my own steps. I started making decisions that felt good for me. I stopped worrying about what’s to come next, and started enjoying the very things that were present in front of me. From here, I laughed a little louder. And I recognized that my own mind was the one who was holding me captive. So I breathed a little more frequently, and learned to talk to myself quite gently. I rer

I am allowed to change, just like the seasons. So I am choosing to rewrite myself in sunlight. I am choosing to let go of all that I cannot control. I will be frolicking with whimsy again.

I didn’t know that healing could laugh until I heard it in my own voice. What a journey life has been. And still here I stand, with seasons now changed finally, ready to begin again.

A better world is coming. A world filled with love and acceptance. Wonder and imagination will run freely. Individuality is to be praised. So bring your rain and thunder, and let us dance our way through this change.