Chaos with Cait

I wonder about it all. I wonder why everything is the way that it is. I wonder if what we know, is even true. I wonder if there is room for change in life’s game. I wonder about the different outcomes in different circumstances, and how they vary for both me and you. I wonder about people’s internal worlds. I wonder about all of the things they could have gone through. I wonder about this timeline and the role that I play in it. I wonder so much that my brain is always worki

I kissed the corner of my no’s goodbye, and carved yes into the marrow of my bones. I have decided to let go, to trust and to let things flow. I once held my “no’s” so tightly. Afraid of what could come if I tried things differently. I was so stuck in my own ways, but thankfully not any longer. Now, I dance in the rain, and simply enjoy life’s wonders. This life is mine. And my life is only once in a lifetime. So this is my claim to renew myself and try again.

My worth is not up for discussion, not even with myself. I know that I am magic. So there is nothing to debate about.

For once, I have chosen not to step back. Instead, I keep on choosing to stay.

My grief rose one night, and slipped from my chest like a small trembling moon. I thought my grief would break me but instead it somehow learned to glow, orbiting closer with every breath I survived. Now, I see grief for what it is, a fallen star that I picked up with my bare hands. One still burning with the memory of everything I’ve lost. Grief doesn’t vanish, it constellates. Grief sketches new patterns across the dark and teaches me that even my sorrow can learn the langu

I set boundaries not to push love away, but to honor and protect the love that I give. Knowing my limits is genuinely a new thing for me.

You are not worthless, and you are not small. The world just gets louder when it fears how powerful you truly are.