Chaos with Cait

Lost, I may be. Yet, found I always am. And so, even the stars envy the way I keep circling back to wonder.

I am what feels to be a hopeless romantic. I do not just crave love, I crave the softness that makes the world feel survivable.

I know that there is always room for wonder. I know that there is always time for beginning again. I won’t.. let anybody tell me anything different.

I wonder about it all. I wonder why everything is the way that it is. I wonder if what we know, is even true. I wonder if there is room for change in life’s game. I wonder about the different outcomes in different circumstances, and how they vary for both me and you. I wonder about people’s internal worlds. I wonder about all of the things they could have gone through. I wonder about this timeline and the role that I play in it. I wonder so much that my brain is always worki

I kissed the corner of my no’s goodbye, and carved yes into the marrow of my bones. I have decided to let go, to trust and to let things flow. I once held my “no’s” so tightly. Afraid of what could come if I tried things differently. I was so stuck in my own ways, but thankfully not any longer. Now, I dance in the rain, and simply enjoy life’s wonders. This life is mine. And my life is only once in a lifetime. So this is my claim to renew myself and try again.

My worth is not up for discussion, not even with myself. I know that I am magic. So there is nothing to debate about.

For once, I have chosen not to step back. Instead, I keep on choosing to stay.